Dear diary,

Ahh this, yes this. Thats what you said. Stay friends. Bull shit. I want you, you to talk to me. You said you'd be fine w anything else.. right? I dont understand myself, whenever i think about him, I'd think in a good perspective and that hes trying to tell me something, I never thought i'd be something bad. I bring hopes to myself I guess? Thursday, 5 July 2012 Hi Hi. I feel, I feel like a total loser. Like nobody needs me, Like I'm freaking useless. I've been alone by myself these past few days. Ifaaf has problems that I do not want to interfere, Michele.. I dont know. I dont know what Im feeling, I dont want to end up like last time, I'd just let it go next year. I swear. Feeling soo.. Hais. Nevermind, No one would understand. Today? Today I had a really long day, But overall it was great. Everything actually, Especially After school. After free period, Shannon wanted to head to the prata shop. Im fine with it, So we were heading there, Shannon was behi

In another life, Id make you stay.. So I don't have to say you were the one that got away. Tuesday, July 3rd 2012 Oh hey, Hi. Today? well obviously something happened the reason why I am here. So I was wondering, Have you ever wanted to change your fate? Like the things thats happening now, Is this what you wanted? Regretted any decisions you made? I know I did. I dont get myself, Wenwei has been very rude, Though we talk and we're friends but.. I dont know. I still.. I dont know, I'd hate him for a split second and then here I am again. Trying to get over him, especially in school. I always remind my myself, Its only a crush so I wont get high hopes when we happen to 'clash' or 'meet', I'd think its my coincidence huh? I cant help myself, Everytime I look at him or he happens to look at me, My heart just skips a beat. Or when I'm near him, I have this.. feeling. Indescribable feelings. Hais zahidah, you're total bullshit. Anyways back to w