Dear diary,

nope, not yet but i hope it'll be soon. It's pathetic how you're trying real hard to forget me. Cause you can never really forget someone whom you truly loved. I should've seen the signs, I should've seen it coming. Well I did, but I chose not to believe it. Because I thought you're better than this. But I thought wrong.. Everyone always proves me otherwise. Sigh pie. Tuesday, 27 November 2012. Vhut a rainy tues-day. Past few weeks was.. sort of productive. Going to the library every tuesday and thursday.. feels like a daily routine for me. Hahahaha. Well definitely not alone, but with a goodfriend. winkwink* ahahahahhaa. That gundu. Past few weeks seems pretty fine to me, My days were great. Alhamdullilah. So I went to the IT fair, the other day on friday brought amirah along cause my dad asked me to go around and help him look for a laptop. So yeah, I went. Took the same train as Shaziq, He was working at John little. hahaha, how cute. Walked around...

Yup . Everyone. though they promised not to, but they did anyways. I'm nothing special so they left, it was that easy. Whats the point of asking them to stay anyways, If they wanted to. Life's different now. Better, not bitter. But I gotta admit, there are still those days when i feel so blue. He left, He found someone new, He replaced me, He's happy. & I am too. But I deserved it, I know. Nothing matters to me anymore. I've met some guys, one or two.. promise not to leave to always stay by my side and will wait. lol. I don't wanna lower my walls down again, I don't want to get myself hurt again. After the day, he left for good. I thought i was going to be.. sad/depressed/hurt, i thought id do crazy stupid things just to get him back. But.. no. I believe i'm stronger than before. Though he did affected me alot those past few weeks but, fuck. I'm never going to be that weak again, I'm not gonna lower my standards just because of him. Hell no...