Dear diary,

Saturday, 15th December 2012 Precisely. Especially when i start to scroll through twitter at night sometimes, or come across some shit i didn't look forward to.. just like yesterday. I saw something that broke my heart into pieces. Wait, what am i saying? Its already shattered into pieces anyways, i don't wanna bother picking it up again. That feeling.. when you know, you've moved on like really you do. You look at them(him&her) and you're just there thinking, 'they would be great together' then after that when you somehow accidentally came across something you see between them.. your eyes start to get all wet and teary, and the best part? It fell.. automatically. Its been a really long time since i've last teared for him, and this tears just.. fall. All of a sudden. Out of nowhere. And the next thing i knew? I was crying myself to sleep. Seems dramatic but.. i dont know really. I dont know what im feeling.. I'm confused. Do i miss him? yeah,

First Picture: Ifaaf's and my creation. Lovely isnt it? hahahaa. Second Picture: Rock band! We all got tired so we sat down for awhile. hehe. Third Picture: I cant live without. Fourth picture: Just dance 4. It was a great work out. Thursday, 13irteen December 2012 o h my god, I read back my last post and im like *facepalm* bloody hell. I didnt check my mistakes. So embarassing. Anyways, today was pretty much the best time i ever had with my friends. Its been a long time since we hang out during the holidays, everyone's so busy with their own life. Practically have time to meet them, but I'm glad I did. Woke up at 10, As always checked twitter. Gosh, I wonder who are your tweets referring to but i couldnt be bothered to care so whatever. Got up and dressed, had lunch with Amirah and straight away went to meet them. It was great, we played RockBand. Sang songs. Had loads of fun, I didnt even had a single thought in my mind. Being around your friends is the

Wednesday, 12 December 2012 Its 3 in the morning, and oh lookie here. its 12/12/12. ahhh..  Those questions i ask myself everyday, looks like it has been answered. Scrolling through my Skype Conversation wasn't a bad thing after all. Thanks Amirah. Today i realized, I'm the idiot all along. Wait, not really. Partly was his but whatever. Lets call him L, L.. why? Lri. Well only some would know. If only he knew all this while, those things I said in the conversation when we were friends.. I don't know what has gotten into me. I was so alone.. And I thought I had somebody, but i thought wrong. He had someone else, the reason why i had to cover up with a lie too. I didn't want to look so pathetic thinking it was only him that I had. But yeah, He was the only one. Its stupid how i still cry over those conversations we had, But hey. I found my answers. Now i know the reason why he deleted me off from instagram, unfollow me on twitter, deleted me off skype. Gosh I wont b

And Im glad that i've met you cause I have someone to talk to, someone who will actually listen to all my rants and merepekness and never complain. Sharing secrets with each other, Having heart to heart talks. omg, youre gay. hahahahaha, just kidding.. Though you've not been there with me for a long time but its okay, you're still my good friend. & I understand. I'd like to thank you actually, For being there for me the past couple of days. I swear i dont know what i'd do without you, okay... thats not literally what i meant but i'm glad you're here for me or else if i had'nt met you.. i'll probably be rolling on my bed crying my eyes out and still not getting over it being all pathetic (which i alr am acc 2 you. idiot) I'll definitely keep that promise between us so.. I won't have to look more pathetic. Heh. Well I gotta say, you're that one friend who always knock some sense into me and i honestly.. like that alot. I meant most of t