Nahh, he wont. hahaha, guys. So apparently just now, i was online. I commented on his status and all he said was 'ok' and another one he commented on the wallpost and he said 'k' ohfuck. im pissed off, all i wrote was 'bloody rude'. urgh, what is up with him, So much for being friends eh? I was just being friendly and erm, normal. and all you gotta do is be a dickhead, oh fuck you. I'll blog about today. Thursday, June 9 2011 So today i went out with Amirah. We had lunch together, since both of us were free. She had to go to dover after that to visit her cousin. But before i story telling with you all, I need to tell you guys something. You know the text messages i had with Bestfriend? yesterday i was re-reading it again and, I ACCIDENTALLY FUCKING DELETED IT. from the sweet shit we talk about to the fights and now ITS FUCKING GONE. GONE. and yeah, i cried. I KNOW STUPID RIGHT, okay i shall kill myself now. cheh kidding, but like. you know, those texts that ...
the reason why i gave up, totally gave up. im tired, of u. 09/02/11. Wednesday! today, woke up at like five. had SL meeting, Im in PD. ): i want PM so badly, cause gott .. hehehe. know whattt? I found out thattt, oh wait! YESTERDAY, FORGOT TO MENTION. I was walking pass Andrew and ehemehem, then.. I said, " BYE ANDREW ! BYE -insertsname-" then he was like nodding, and smiling to himself. I was like, "eeeksss!" well obviously not infront of him. okay what ever, had bonding session with the PD people, so boringggg. i barely know them, only marcus and some other dudes which i dont talk to but i know them, hahahahaha. PAL? I cheated :B no laaaaaaa, cheh. I just. u know, didnt study. hehe, IH sucks u know ): literally it did. so, recess. Was with azri, yknow what? Azri called HIM sexy, ahhahaha. cause he wants to show off his sexy body, the way he walks. trolololol, after recess was IH, rocked! wee, as always, guess what? after school, we had to stay back with that stup...
I think this is something like what actually happened to us. Except, we didnt talk it out. But, its so fucking true through. But, then I wonder if he still love me though. zahidah, you're still young. what love love, if its meant to be then it will be. *prays* I mean, I gotta face it. I cant, give up on him. I tried so hard, But everything just leads me back to him . Bestfriend pm-ed me the other night, we talked. But whenever i start talking about how 'happy' his life is without me, He'd either change the topic, forget about it or make excuses. Apparently he still knows me quite well despite everything we've been through. Sometimes, All i wanna know is the truth. Dont you miss us? Dont you ever want to see us back as bestfriends again? Maybe this time, It'd be different, since we're more 'matured' and stuff. Maybe, It could be better? Maybe, he just wants us to stay like this. Since he's happy. Im always telling my side of the story, I told him ...
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