I think this is something like what actually happened to us. Except, we didnt talk it out. But, its so fucking true through. But, then I wonder if he still love me though. zahidah, you're still young. what love love, if its meant to be then it will be. *prays* I mean, I gotta face it. I cant, give up on him. I tried so hard, But everything just leads me back to him . Bestfriend pm-ed me the other night, we talked. But whenever i start talking about how 'happy' his life is without me, He'd either change the topic, forget about it or make excuses. Apparently he still knows me quite well despite everything we've been through. Sometimes, All i wanna know is the truth. Dont you miss us? Dont you ever want to see us back as bestfriends again? Maybe this time, It'd be different, since we're more 'matured' and stuff. Maybe, It could be better? Maybe, he just wants us to stay like this. Since he's happy. Im always telling my side of the story, I told him ...
I was so happy reading the first one. Thinking that she won't like him and stuff like that. Till I read the second conversation..... 'I like other people ? got meh ? ' 'why would i break your heart ?' wah, so that means you do like him... wait love him.. & he loves you. yaay! lovelove. that should be me I even asked you by using Jiahwee's phone. Looks like you really do take her seriously. But once I asked about how the fuck you've moved on. You didnt seem to answer. fuckyou. I remembered asking him if he was ever going to be with her. He's like, "Idk?" take care, take reallll good care of him k vivian k. ah' Sajak ah korang. Satu Ahlian nak mampus, Lagi satu Ahbeng tak menjadi. Bagusbagus. Ever felt as if your heart literally sank? October, you suck. Fucking suck. Im just hoping you wont bring her to our school carnival on the 29th october itself. I'd die. Literally . Thursday, 6 October 2011 Reached school, Saw Amirah and ...
Yes, exactly. Well part of it, not really about the getting hurt part. Just not ready, yet. or maybe, forever. okay? can. omgomgomg, Its the 8th. woop. Happy 8monthsary! with my dickhead imaginary chinese ex boyfriend whom i err, dont care about anymore. weeee~ im full of crap, excuse me. geez. Tuesday, June 7 2011 Soo yesterday, I swear i forgot what i did. But im gonna talk about, what happened at night. boo, lool. ehh, I finished my school work, weee~ well except for some reports and compositions which i is lazy to do. I was lying down in bed, thinking about bestfriend. all of a sudden, gosh. Why do i always have to think about it? crap. pshh. & yeah, I started a conversation with him. Oh god zahidah, when will you ever learn? He's going aussie for a week, lucky guy. Surfing, waveboarding, longboarding. ohmygod, surfers are such cutie's :) zahidah, you're really a confused person. yeah, okay i do. I do love my bestfriend, well of course as a bestfriend. well, used ....
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