Dear diary,

when will we ever have a reallllllllllllllllllll conversation? like last time? ): Thursday, 24 February :) i likeeeeeeeeee today, but joshuah. PAN SAI ME AGAIN ): stupid him, i sad. so yeah, PE i was like pissed off somehow, and then ict. a friend cried, ouch actually): Recess, chocolates everywhereeeeeeeee~ and yeah. After school was the best. but waittttttt, before that was science, and Mrs Lai was nice enough to switch on the aircon. aww :) and ravi was like, zahidah! i thought u were mine? ): when i was like, kinda peeping looking at people. HAHAHAH. so yeah, after school. Saw sean, so like i dragged him to 7 eleven to buy me my chocolate. ATLAST. I had training, and remedial. Floorball training was funnnn! Armapal, was like making fun of me and shit. And i scored 2 goals bby! im so pro. ceehhhhhhhh, gosh. I accidentally hit fahema. LOLOLOL. im felt so sorry for her cause my stick was like so straight and not proper. sorry! heeh. So yeah, Darryl was like,"yeah i know im handso...

I swear, when i accidentally touched your hand. that feeling, came back. heyyyyy, okay. sorry about the previous post, i was like freakin mad. okay so lets talk about yesterday & today. Monday and tuesday didnt go to school :)) Wednesday, 23 Feb. Yesterday was awesumm, like really. i love it, its like super randomly fun to the max. hehehe. So yeah, early in the morning suck'd but afternoon after school was then awesum. So yeah, he texted me anddd, he asked to be friends. like really friends. so yeah, and no. somehow, i didnt freak out. I was like- keeping it cool. so yeah, hahahaha butt. TILL i remembered about the whole love cycle thing, you knoww.. from strangers to friends to bestfriends to ehem. okay whatever, i know its not gonna happen. but miracles like this do right? :) Somehow right now, i really dont know who to trust. Even my closest friends bailed on me, Judged me and even boss me around. I kept on thinking about it though. Then there was this guy, me and her was li...

This totally cheered me up, thank you Isham, Rhyna & Joshuah -insert hearts manymany- I've been teased, judged, hurt by my OWN friends, or are they my friends? But wait, Is it wrong to change? Not by attitude base, but by your looks. I mean, Hey. We are all growing up, and plus, Its puberty shit. I hate how my friends are treating me, telling me that im a piece of superfake china-made. They told me i've modified? Into what? Some bitch. I mean, hello. eventhough youre trying to make it nice, by saying i've changed. U used the word modified, i mean. modified its like for a freaking robot. Wait, I AM A ROBOT. Thanks, and yeah. Before I've "modified", you guys. Hurt me. Alot. I mean, remember the old nerdy me? the, super selenger me? yeah, that. I mean, You guys called me Selenger, Nerd, Robot. Nerd-bestfriend. The fuck? Dont you know it fucking hurts? I know, we're like suppose to tell each other off when this happens. But noooooooooooooooooooo, cause...

so basically. Have I forgot you yet? :/ its still lingering on my mind though. Friday, 18 feb. So yeah, after sports day. Headed to Ifaaf's crib, with zakiyah and amirah. So yeah, had lunch there. Under her block, the market there. ^^ so like yeah, we checked what we didnt have in our bags. And then, we head off to school, inside her dad's car. blahblahblah, Camp. We had to surrender EVERYHTING la ): by that, the most needed stuff. Such as Phone and other shits. Oooo ~ I love my group people. They are so niceeeeeee, Let me tell you who are they. All the PD members' hehee. Joey, Yash, Aisyah, Humairah, Pooja, Sharani, Mumtaj, Urffi & yeah syahindah. She wasnt really a huge help though, My group people always count on me, on the decisions :) hehehe, yayy! they trust me. Hehe. love themm, they've been there for me. Aww (: Especially Joey, Shes the sweetest. I got sick, then. ): its like so sad, I mean after all the fun and all i got sick )': They were still there f...

when i look at you for a moment there, i just feel like there's still hope. i dont know what im doing, its either im holding on, or slowly letting go . its been 3 months, ever since we last spoke. Friday, 18 Feb. so like yeah, yayy. sports day, obviously, im gonna blog about it. So i woke up at 4, thinking it was 5. omgg, stupid right? I know, but so yeah. I still grab my towel and continued bathing. blahblahblah, daddy cooked rice for me! :) so i packed it, ate it with ifaaf. Ive packed my bags for camp, so i dropped it off at Ifaaf's house and thenn, Reached bedok stadium at 7. Exactly! so yeah, gotta help out. I was holding the 213 and 212 card :P hahahahaha, ehem. nevermind, so yeah. Sports day was like super kecohhhh la horr, Alphine was beside us. Then yeah, I sat alone for awhile. Tears started to fall then, :/ idontknow. really, ifaaf was like, eh! zahidah, dont look laa. Look at me :D then i was like, err. okay, so yeah. The songs played was awesumm please! :) Travie ...

Yayy! He is? :) hahahahhaa. as if. Im gonna blog about those last few days, isit oooookay? alright! k, merepek. I know. Thursday, 17 feb. Hiiiiiiii :) so yeah, had school. Woke up as pernormal, had PE first period. the girls played badminton the guys played captains ball. hoho. After a few rounds playing it, we stopped. well, me and thila. too tired, and lazy :P had ICT, blahblahblah. Alot of people were online, ishh. Then recess, then science and thennnnnnnnn maths, lastly mother tongue -o- Today. Floorball was cancelled, greattttttttttt. And then Maths remedial also, wahhhhhh. Amirah, Pai tao me. as always -_- I merajuk with her, and soooooo. I go out with Sean ! yayy. hahahha. funnn. we walk about, then i loner sia. All alone, gotta wait till 5oclock, causee i wanna go back home with Joshuah. talked to sean, blahblahblah. Then anis came in, then we started talking about some crap. hoho, eh. He's actually a sweet and nice guy o.o i mean, after he told his stories. TROLOLOL. and ...

Valentines day also known as, ForeverAlone day! :) hehehe. see thattttttt? the conversation ontop, yeahhhhhhhhhhh. hahahahhaha, okay so lets story telling nowwwwww! hehe. woke in the morning feeling dissy like fuck, grab my glasses walked into the toilet and bathe~ and then had breakfast, and drove off to school. so like we had mother tongue, Malay teacher so pissed, cause our Express class superb noisy laaa. Only first row was like, not asked to sit outside. my rowww, ofcourse. the goodgirls :) chehh! so like then, had PE. mr gabriel wee took over and it was no fun at all please ): played floorball. englishhh and i was busy writing something well a letter? to ehem, someone. Recess, i was holding a rose. and some stupid people were like asking me, WHERE U GET IT? and WHO GIVE U? i just said," ohh! admirer" Dhaswiniy so kpo, trolololol. then had english, i ate so much chocolate till like im so full please. Music sucked everyone was like talking all the way, didnt give a shit a...