Dear diary,

My boyfriend! He's so.. goodlooking. Okay not hot. I like his hair. Reminds me of someone. not to be mention. LOL. seriously. but whatever. got over it, really really. My bestie still the best lah okay, Michele Indemini please? :) Friday, 23rd December 2011 HeyHi! HappyHappyday for me please. I swear. Met up with Bestie to buy his mom and brother christmas gift and Aliah. How nice :B Anyways, uhm met at somerset. oooo, I can spot him from here. hahaha, Aliah was like "seriously?! thats him? O:" Walked to HnM, we were like literally going round in circles. Trying to get th perfect gift for his mother. omg, I cannot uh. When I shop with a guy, and he knows what i like. Like so awkward like that, hahahaha. Got his mum a white Jacket. Nice eh, I like. I mean if his mum doesnt want it, I do! Plus its S :p hahahha, walked to Ion. Like all the way, passed by Takashimaya and We keep on asssuming what if Sazlynna was there? lol. wild imaginations~ Hungry as fuck. Headed to topsho...

Wednesday, 21th December 2011 heyhey! went out with bestie, baby and naufal today was awesum. Hmm, met them at the promenade and uhmm. Lost naufal at first, who ask him to go up? selenge. hehe. anyways, me and jiahwee were talking about.. yeah the usuals. Turn around and I saw bestie. tsk, all red. hahaha, with his cap. alala. hahaha, walked all the way to the singapore flyer. what the f, almost kena hit my the car. They left me alone, gahhh. hahaha, uhm. Makan popeyes, cannot habis. uhmm ah. Jalan back to Marina Square wanted to bowl no place. Pool, omg kena bullied. I was forced too.. uhm ahhhhh. okay, played arcade with baby. lalalalallalaa, Truth or dare. stalked saz.. uhmm I guess we lepak for awhile and yeah. Balik, yknow why I dont wanna talk in detail? cause when I reread this post. I would remember what exactly happened. aww, okay. so sweet. ~ wheee. Its weird how day by day, when we get closer. Im starting to like you even more

Sunday, 18th December 2011 These pass few days. Im glad to say i've never been sad about anything. Well okay, maybe abit when.. Sabrina had to write on Shaziq's wall with heart shapes and "i'll always be there for you. text me" wtf. Oh no its okay. Im fine with it, looks like he's lonely now. In his face. hahahaa. I've been really really happy, Thank you. Yknow who you are. I know he's not the same like those idiots. I can feel it myself, Im glad that he's happy too. And wenwei? oh fuck him. Looks like he has no other girls left. Bullshit. Clap hands. ahhahaa. I dont wanna be like last time with all those guys. I just wanna stick to one. Only my bestfriend. I dont want anyone else, cause I guess my bestfriend is the only person who can make me happy. Eventhough we barely meet and shit, He's always been there. Tahan my attitude and shit. I just want someone who wont give up on me. Eventhough sometimes I feel down, trust me its not permanent ca...

hehe, guess who? Wo de hao pen you. Hehe so cute :3 shh. dont tell him i said that. & like finally we got to hang out! It was really awkward at first but I break the ice. Lol as usual ~ so awesum. Friday, 9 December 2011 heyhoo. I couldnt sleep exactly on the 8th of december.. krik krik. Oh oh oh ya! It was... uhmm 1year 2months anniversary eh? If it were to last. okay whatever. Had plans on this day. Went out with bestfriend! yaaay! err no. Its not him anymore. aww sadly, he's been replaced. With someone wayway much special to me. Wonder how he feels.. hmm. Oh well. Woke up superb early lah seriously. 10plus and i had to bathe or else it would take forever for me to siap. Text puffy and head down to somerset. Guess who i bumped into? haha, Akram. So.. our conversation went like this. Me : eh! Hi. Where you going? Meeting up with Jarett? omg you've grown taller. Him : Oh no lah. meeting my primary school friends. No lah. so short. Me : then.. why tchoukball baju? no lah ...

Thursday, 1st December 2011 HeyHi. Omg. HappyBirthdayMummy. Anyways, this past few months has been real tough for me but I can manage it through. Well with some help of course. hehe. I guess, Im finally over those two idiots. Yay! But I wont be surprised if the feelings ever comes back though. Cant believe he's been mingling but no girl want him. bluek. Jiahwee just found out this, The girls he likes doesnt want him, but the girls he used to like all want him back. okay ew, I dont wanna be one of them. He went to korea, oh okay. dayum. And I cant believe he asked everyone else for their contact number except for me... wait no i dont care. Anyways, Shaziq. I saw his tweet. " I fucking miss you bestfriend :( " ooooo. wonder who's his new bestfriend. okay wait noooooooo. Im not suppose to give a fuck about any of this anymore. Cause, all I want now is to finally be happy and to finally move on.. well lets take it slow. I've been saying that for like 2730183012 times ...

Eh bestfriend! We used to be like that eh? You pushing me around, 'bullying' me. I 'bullying' you and you get pushed around. The stupid MRT games we used to play, and look at us now. Strangers. For good. Thursday, 3rd November 2011 Early in the morning, woke up. Head to polyclinic with parents for injection. Went to eat breakfast with them at Bedok South with parents then met up with Ifaaf at her place since it was near. Texted bby since shes wide awake. Met her up in school, Chit chat and shit. Till we saw salman, Hes a damn stalker. hehehe, Helped out with her letter. Salman was sitting on the bench like some bangla whistling to himself. Time strike twelve, bby damn kiasu and excited for the resulrs. Wee. We all got into 302! Me, Jiahwee, Ifaaf & Amirah. I got the subject combinations i want, so time to work hard. POA, Biology, Art, Geography. YAY! Amin. Checked his name, whoa. He's in 312, Smart ass. Bestf? couldnt find out till i got home, and he said 311....

Hey you! Remember this day? The day, we fought almost of the verge of breaking up. Remember? you selling the drink. Adnan and Johan approaching you. I remembered I cried, because of this fight. I cried infront of your face, a few metres or inches away. You looked really guilty then. Well, apparently the day of the Carnival last year was on the 30th. Everything that falls apart happens on this day itself. Ive move on, I stil do talk about it prolly still care but I dont love you anymore? Sad isnt it? No one is occupying the heart of mine. goodbye october. you mean alot to me than you'll ever know. Saturday, 29th October 2011 Woke up early, headed to school. Reached school, Walking with Izak finding for Miss Parvin. And Izak was like, "oi him" Im like where got? "on stage" We were walking around, called miss parvin. She waited for us at our booth. Our booth is under the games section. I helped miss parvin to and fro, I wanted to turn back. So I did, and Looks like...