Dear diary,

Sunday, 26 January 2013 So here's my second blog post for today. I'd like to dedicate this post to my girlfriends. Each and everyone of them. I know they're having a hard time behind those smiles but i know that deep down there's still that strong side inside of you. You guys do know, I really have a hard time expressing my feelings and sometimes i don't show them at all and I may suck at giving advices but thanks for understanding. hahahahahaa. As the years goes by, I never regretted meeting any of you guys. Up till today, you guys are the only one who never left by my side and I hope it'll be never ending. (the things i blog are words i couldnt say in rl) Jiahwee,  Hey bby. I know you're stalking me right now, right right. hehe, I think i know what had happened but i won't want to mention it here so.. I'm not going to give the usual "cheerup" kinda thing but well.. here it goes. I don't like seeing you sad, I don't li...

Sunday, 26 January 2013 Hello, The last time I blogged was about a week ago? oh gosh, February's coming so soon. O'levels so soon, everything's happening in a split second. I'm suppose to be studying but whatever. So i was talking to a Amirah, Just now. It turns out P was hanging out with L, and I'm like as shocked as ever. And oh god the picture they posted, L did change a lot. I'm ashamed of myself for dating a guy like him, the fuck was i thinking? No, Not the looks. It doesn't matter if i were to date him now, and he looks like that but.. His attitude. Is this the part where i realize, He isn't the guy i want to be with..? Guess i didn't know the real side of him, He was just showing me the side i wanted to see, the side which impress me that actually made me feel guilty for sort of leaving him. When all this while, behind my back, when we were together he's already been doing all this shit and I didn't even know. Or is it because he ...

Sunday, 13 January 2013 Hello there, its been a year since I last blogged eh? haha. I practically have no time, at all. I'm so busy with school. Very busy. Wide awake at 1:37am, doing Amaths. I know right, hard working much? Its almost the second week of school. Things are going smoothly for me, thank god. So last few days ago, Olevel results were given out. It was compulsory for us to seat there and watch them, gosh and I feel so.. nervous all of a sudden. This year, It'll be my turn. Creepy, Scary. Yeah I guess. Most of my seniors were crying.. sigh. Eye candy was behind me, eep. Sat beside Amirah and Atheerah, fangirl with Amirah bout hers. hahaha. Okay anyways, I had CCA on that day itself. The Sec ones are having their cca trial, so.. I made friends with them, such qt pies. Hahaha, and I went back home. Thoughts running through my mind, contemplating whether or not should I ask L about his results. So I asked maybe a few guys for their opinion and they said it'd be...

Saturday, 15th December 2012 Precisely. Especially when i start to scroll through twitter at night sometimes, or come across some shit i didn't look forward to.. just like yesterday. I saw something that broke my heart into pieces. Wait, what am i saying? Its already shattered into pieces anyways, i don't wanna bother picking it up again. That feeling.. when you know, you've moved on like really you do. You look at them(him&her) and you're just there thinking, 'they would be great together' then after that when you somehow accidentally came across something you see between them.. your eyes start to get all wet and teary, and the best part? It fell.. automatically. Its been a really long time since i've last teared for him, and this tears just.. fall. All of a sudden. Out of nowhere. And the next thing i knew? I was crying myself to sleep. Seems dramatic but.. i dont know really. I dont know what im feeling.. I'm confused. Do i miss him? yeah, ...

First Picture: Ifaaf's and my creation. Lovely isnt it? hahahaa. Second Picture: Rock band! We all got tired so we sat down for awhile. hehe. Third Picture: I cant live without. Fourth picture: Just dance 4. It was a great work out. Thursday, 13irteen December 2012 o h my god, I read back my last post and im like *facepalm* bloody hell. I didnt check my mistakes. So embarassing. Anyways, today was pretty much the best time i ever had with my friends. Its been a long time since we hang out during the holidays, everyone's so busy with their own life. Practically have time to meet them, but I'm glad I did. Woke up at 10, As always checked twitter. Gosh, I wonder who are your tweets referring to but i couldnt be bothered to care so whatever. Got up and dressed, had lunch with Amirah and straight away went to meet them. It was great, we played RockBand. Sang songs. Had loads of fun, I didnt even had a single thought in my mind. Being around your friends is the ...

Wednesday, 12 December 2012 Its 3 in the morning, and oh lookie here. its 12/12/12. ahhh..  Those questions i ask myself everyday, looks like it has been answered. Scrolling through my Skype Conversation wasn't a bad thing after all. Thanks Amirah. Today i realized, I'm the idiot all along. Wait, not really. Partly was his but whatever. Lets call him L, L.. why? Lri. Well only some would know. If only he knew all this while, those things I said in the conversation when we were friends.. I don't know what has gotten into me. I was so alone.. And I thought I had somebody, but i thought wrong. He had someone else, the reason why i had to cover up with a lie too. I didn't want to look so pathetic thinking it was only him that I had. But yeah, He was the only one. Its stupid how i still cry over those conversations we had, But hey. I found my answers. Now i know the reason why he deleted me off from instagram, unfollow me on twitter, deleted me off skype. Gosh I wont b...

And Im glad that i've met you cause I have someone to talk to, someone who will actually listen to all my rants and merepekness and never complain. Sharing secrets with each other, Having heart to heart talks. omg, youre gay. hahahahaha, just kidding.. Though you've not been there with me for a long time but its okay, you're still my good friend. & I understand. I'd like to thank you actually, For being there for me the past couple of days. I swear i dont know what i'd do without you, okay... thats not literally what i meant but i'm glad you're here for me or else if i had'nt met you.. i'll probably be rolling on my bed crying my eyes out and still not getting over it being all pathetic (which i alr am acc 2 you. idiot) I'll definitely keep that promise between us so.. I won't have to look more pathetic. Heh. Well I gotta say, you're that one friend who always knock some sense into me and i honestly.. like that alot. I meant most of t...