Dear diary,

when will we ever have a reallllllllllllllllllll conversation? like last time? ): Thursday, 24 February :) i likeeeeeeeeee today, but joshuah. PAN SAI ME AGAIN ): stupid him, i sad. so yeah, PE i was like pissed off somehow, and then ict. a friend cried, ouch actually): Recess, chocolates everywhereeeeeeeee~ and yeah. After school was the best. but waittttttt, before that was science, and Mrs Lai was nice enough to switch on the aircon. aww :) and ravi was like, zahidah! i thought u were mine? ): when i was like, kinda peeping looking at people. HAHAHAH. so yeah, after school. Saw sean, so like i dragged him to 7 eleven to buy me my chocolate. ATLAST. I had training, and remedial. Floorball training was funnnn! Armapal, was like making fun of me and shit. And i scored 2 goals bby! im so pro. ceehhhhhhhh, gosh. I accidentally hit fahema. LOLOLOL. im felt so sorry for her cause my stick was like so straight and not proper. sorry! heeh. So yeah, Darryl was like,"yeah i know im handso

I swear, when i accidentally touched your hand. that feeling, came back. heyyyyy, okay. sorry about the previous post, i was like freakin mad. okay so lets talk about yesterday & today. Monday and tuesday didnt go to school :)) Wednesday, 23 Feb. Yesterday was awesumm, like really. i love it, its like super randomly fun to the max. hehehe. So yeah, early in the morning suck'd but afternoon after school was then awesum. So yeah, he texted me anddd, he asked to be friends. like really friends. so yeah, and no. somehow, i didnt freak out. I was like- keeping it cool. so yeah, hahahaha butt. TILL i remembered about the whole love cycle thing, you knoww.. from strangers to friends to bestfriends to ehem. okay whatever, i know its not gonna happen. but miracles like this do right? :) Somehow right now, i really dont know who to trust. Even my closest friends bailed on me, Judged me and even boss me around. I kept on thinking about it though. Then there was this guy, me and her was li

This totally cheered me up, thank you Isham, Rhyna & Joshuah -insert hearts manymany- I've been teased, judged, hurt by my OWN friends, or are they my friends? But wait, Is it wrong to change? Not by attitude base, but by your looks. I mean, Hey. We are all growing up, and plus, Its puberty shit. I hate how my friends are treating me, telling me that im a piece of superfake china-made. They told me i've modified? Into what? Some bitch. I mean, hello. eventhough youre trying to make it nice, by saying i've changed. U used the word modified, i mean. modified its like for a freaking robot. Wait, I AM A ROBOT. Thanks, and yeah. Before I've "modified", you guys. Hurt me. Alot. I mean, remember the old nerdy me? the, super selenger me? yeah, that. I mean, You guys called me Selenger, Nerd, Robot. Nerd-bestfriend. The fuck? Dont you know it fucking hurts? I know, we're like suppose to tell each other off when this happens. But noooooooooooooooooooo, cause'

so basically. Have I forgot you yet? :/ its still lingering on my mind though. Friday, 18 feb. So yeah, after sports day. Headed to Ifaaf's crib, with zakiyah and amirah. So yeah, had lunch there. Under her block, the market there. ^^ so like yeah, we checked what we didnt have in our bags. And then, we head off to school, inside her dad's car. blahblahblah, Camp. We had to surrender EVERYHTING la ): by that, the most needed stuff. Such as Phone and other shits. Oooo ~ I love my group people. They are so niceeeeeee, Let me tell you who are they. All the PD members' hehee. Joey, Yash, Aisyah, Humairah, Pooja, Sharani, Mumtaj, Urffi & yeah syahindah. She wasnt really a huge help though, My group people always count on me, on the decisions :) hehehe, yayy! they trust me. Hehe. love themm, they've been there for me. Aww (: Especially Joey, Shes the sweetest. I got sick, then. ): its like so sad, I mean after all the fun and all i got sick )': They were still there f

when i look at you for a moment there, i just feel like there's still hope. i dont know what im doing, its either im holding on, or slowly letting go . its been 3 months, ever since we last spoke. Friday, 18 Feb. so like yeah, yayy. sports day, obviously, im gonna blog about it. So i woke up at 4, thinking it was 5. omgg, stupid right? I know, but so yeah. I still grab my towel and continued bathing. blahblahblah, daddy cooked rice for me! :) so i packed it, ate it with ifaaf. Ive packed my bags for camp, so i dropped it off at Ifaaf's house and thenn, Reached bedok stadium at 7. Exactly! so yeah, gotta help out. I was holding the 213 and 212 card :P hahahahaha, ehem. nevermind, so yeah. Sports day was like super kecohhhh la horr, Alphine was beside us. Then yeah, I sat alone for awhile. Tears started to fall then, :/ idontknow. really, ifaaf was like, eh! zahidah, dont look laa. Look at me :D then i was like, err. okay, so yeah. The songs played was awesumm please! :) Travie

Yayy! He is? :) hahahahhaa. as if. Im gonna blog about those last few days, isit oooookay? alright! k, merepek. I know. Thursday, 17 feb. Hiiiiiiii :) so yeah, had school. Woke up as pernormal, had PE first period. the girls played badminton the guys played captains ball. hoho. After a few rounds playing it, we stopped. well, me and thila. too tired, and lazy :P had ICT, blahblahblah. Alot of people were online, ishh. Then recess, then science and thennnnnnnnn maths, lastly mother tongue -o- Today. Floorball was cancelled, greattttttttttt. And then Maths remedial also, wahhhhhh. Amirah, Pai tao me. as always -_- I merajuk with her, and soooooo. I go out with Sean ! yayy. hahahha. funnn. we walk about, then i loner sia. All alone, gotta wait till 5oclock, causee i wanna go back home with Joshuah. talked to sean, blahblahblah. Then anis came in, then we started talking about some crap. hoho, eh. He's actually a sweet and nice guy o.o i mean, after he told his stories. TROLOLOL. and

Valentines day also known as, ForeverAlone day! :) hehehe. see thattttttt? the conversation ontop, yeahhhhhhhhhhh. hahahahhaha, okay so lets story telling nowwwwww! hehe. woke in the morning feeling dissy like fuck, grab my glasses walked into the toilet and bathe~ and then had breakfast, and drove off to school. so like we had mother tongue, Malay teacher so pissed, cause our Express class superb noisy laaa. Only first row was like, not asked to sit outside. my rowww, ofcourse. the goodgirls :) chehh! so like then, had PE. mr gabriel wee took over and it was no fun at all please ): played floorball. englishhh and i was busy writing something well a letter? to ehem, someone. Recess, i was holding a rose. and some stupid people were like asking me, WHERE U GET IT? and WHO GIVE U? i just said," ohh! admirer" Dhaswiniy so kpo, trolololol. then had english, i ate so much chocolate till like im so full please. Music sucked everyone was like talking all the way, didnt give a shit a

Valentine's day is coming! Why wont you be my valentine? ): heyhey! todaaay, TGIF bby' So yeah, got to school on time, and head to the canteen. Sat with Meiying and the other girls, and so we chatted about something super random. seven oclock, went up to hall. gosh, walked straight. Then i chatted with caleb, omg he so chubby laaaaaaa & fat. then after that i went to Meiying again, the place where she was sitting is so close to yknow who. I talked kinda loud, good thing he didnt heard it. omg. So assembly, Jarett sat beside me! awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhs. hehehe, sweets. He said, " see i promise you, i will sit beside you " then he smiled, omg. hahaha, then yeah, we talked and blahblahblah. After assembly SL were asked to meet Mr Rezal for awhile. Had art, PICNIC! brought food of course, Mr tan was blabbering about something important, hmm. wonder what it is about, so yeah. then had IH, funnnnnnnnn. OH YA, forgot. bitch came, yiyi. yknow? everyone ignored her since its

remember? rememmmmmmmber? when we got angry with each other, and all i did was poke you and said," oi! are u okay?" you still kept quiet, till i annoy you and keep on talking to you, and thenn we were okay again. ohmyg, i know its the most stupidest question yet. but, yeah. I didnt know what to say when i was near you, really. Wished i could still do that though, with our situation like this. woop. you wont even talk to me. I know i may, sound so desperate but whatever. School? today? greatttttttttt, First period floorball! :) PE. hehehee, then had this stupid lecturer came to our class talk about yiyi's "incident" oh, you dont know how much people hates her now. In our class especialy, okay! whatever, recess. hmmmmm, eateateat. and yeah, copied work. blahblahblah, Sciencee was boring, didnt pay attention but had class test, our whole group worked together as a team, sweet right? i know! hehehee, 203 mahh. Maths? ginny pig, had class test, i kinda blacked out ab

the reason why i gave up, totally gave up. im tired, of u. 09/02/11. Wednesday! today, woke up at like five. had SL meeting, Im in PD. ): i want PM so badly, cause gott .. hehehe. know whattt? I found out thattt, oh wait! YESTERDAY, FORGOT TO MENTION. I was walking pass Andrew and ehemehem, then.. I said, " BYE ANDREW ! BYE -insertsname-" then he was like nodding, and smiling to himself. I was like, "eeeksss!" well obviously not infront of him. okay what ever, had bonding session with the PD people, so boringggg. i barely know them, only marcus and some other dudes which i dont talk to but i know them, hahahahaha. PAL? I cheated :B no laaaaaaa, cheh. I just. u know, didnt study. hehe, IH sucks u know ): literally it did. so, recess. Was with azri, yknow what? Azri called HIM sexy, ahhahaha. cause he wants to show off his sexy body, the way he walks. trolololol, after recess was IH, rocked! wee, as always, guess what? after school, we had to stay back with that stup

I wonder, really wonder how the heck do you know all this stuff that i blogged about and i didnt told anyone. goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, scary. are you like, stalking me? 08/02/11 ; tuesdays. wee! walked towards zakiyah after reaching school, she was with zamir. hehee, she scared me with her brown eyes, like very the obvious one. hee, scary. I was like O: all the way. blahblahblah, went to hall with azri and douglas. Oh! azri my adik, sec one. hehee. be jealous, hes super nice. So i was like mixin with the sec ones their row, then all stare, walao. Sad or what, dont know how to smile ): i know ah i very pretty. hehehe, blahblahblah as usual area was noisy but teachers were just too deaf, miss pig didnt come and miss cheong replace her, shes like so small like my mum, but her voice like fucking loud. K whatever, malay disturbed akmal they were behind us, duh. hahahaa, Akmal kene the worst by ifaaf. Recess! fuck, memories just gushed in again, then i snapped out of it for awhile. blahbl

Hi, firstly. I ? I didnt give respect to you? please eh, if it wasnt for that annoying face of yours that stupid sad face. maybe i would have gave my respect to you, sorry cannot tahan. hahahaa, me backstab you? sure or not? think carefully can, budak kecil. you just want bloody fame, hahahahahhahahaha. desperate, going around to people being nice taking pictures with them post it on facebook and bam! popular cause of that? err, please. you wouldnt be popular for the sake of them, fuck you. fuck off. k bye. This is my super-idiotic-funny-crazy-merepek friend! ifaaf ismail, hahahahahhahaha. k. not about her, this is a totally random picture. so blur, so stupid. k. lets talk about todayyyyyy! duh. woke up blahblahblah, Azri sat with us. Then we were like talking about the guys we met the other day, ahhahaha. happyhappy day today! well, not really. blahblahblah, PE disturbed yiyi, omg everyone is like against her. New bitch in the class, HAHAHAHA. sucker. cheh, so mean. well i didnt distu

went to batam the last few days of CNY, hahaha, with aliah of course. had an awesum time, i guess. at the end of our trip, saw ryy' she kena scolded by her mum. whoa, so loud la the mum shout. wth, k la bye.

Wednesday, 2feb2011. today, its gonna be the last day that im gonna shed a tear for you. i promise you, nomore. so yeah, reached school. blahblahblah. sat in canteen, and yeahh. inserts something- and aww, there this girl. i forgot her name, she hugged me and asked me if everything was fine. shes so sweet, really (': touched my heart. blahblahblah, stupid performance, sitting same row as ducky! he so cute laa, wave at me then smilesmile, hahahaa. and then he waved, his friend also kpo, like ifaaf like that. after school, went out with ifaaf. Shalyna paitao rysha ): abeh i cancel cause, nanti cam awkward. wth. kesian kan, then me ifaaf wanted to go nex, but before that had lunch at kembangan, heheee. ate and chew and much, decided to go Kallang instead -__- cause of shaziq, we played bowling. before that, we waited for shaziq for 2 hours! omg, cannot tahan, he is annoying. oh! i watched a tornament match yesterday, my school against canberra. the guys there, woo! k panassssssss, the