I think this is something like what actually happened to us. Except, we didnt talk it out. But, its so fucking true through. But, then I wonder if he still love me though. zahidah, you're still young. what love love, if its meant to be then it will be. *prays* I mean, I gotta face it. I cant, give up on him. I tried so hard, But everything just leads me back to him . Bestfriend pm-ed me the other night, we talked. But whenever i start talking about how 'happy' his life is without me, He'd either change the topic, forget about it or make excuses. Apparently he still knows me quite well despite everything we've been through. Sometimes, All i wanna know is the truth. Dont you miss us? Dont you ever want to see us back as bestfriends again? Maybe this time, It'd be different, since we're more 'matured' and stuff. Maybe, It could be better? Maybe, he just wants us to stay like this. Since he's happy. Im always telling my side of the story, I told him ...
Yayy! He is? :) hahahahhaa. as if. Im gonna blog about those last few days, isit oooookay? alright! k, merepek. I know. Thursday, 17 feb. Hiiiiiiii :) so yeah, had school. Woke up as pernormal, had PE first period. the girls played badminton the guys played captains ball. hoho. After a few rounds playing it, we stopped. well, me and thila. too tired, and lazy :P had ICT, blahblahblah. Alot of people were online, ishh. Then recess, then science and thennnnnnnnn maths, lastly mother tongue -o- Today. Floorball was cancelled, greattttttttttt. And then Maths remedial also, wahhhhhh. Amirah, Pai tao me. as always -_- I merajuk with her, and soooooo. I go out with Sean ! yayy. hahahha. funnn. we walk about, then i loner sia. All alone, gotta wait till 5oclock, causee i wanna go back home with Joshuah. talked to sean, blahblahblah. Then anis came in, then we started talking about some crap. hoho, eh. He's actually a sweet and nice guy o.o i mean, after he told his stories. TROLOLOL. and ...
Nahh, he wont. hahaha, guys. So apparently just now, i was online. I commented on his status and all he said was 'ok' and another one he commented on the wallpost and he said 'k' ohfuck. im pissed off, all i wrote was 'bloody rude'. urgh, what is up with him, So much for being friends eh? I was just being friendly and erm, normal. and all you gotta do is be a dickhead, oh fuck you. I'll blog about today. Thursday, June 9 2011 So today i went out with Amirah. We had lunch together, since both of us were free. She had to go to dover after that to visit her cousin. But before i story telling with you all, I need to tell you guys something. You know the text messages i had with Bestfriend? yesterday i was re-reading it again and, I ACCIDENTALLY FUCKING DELETED IT. from the sweet shit we talk about to the fights and now ITS FUCKING GONE. GONE. and yeah, i cried. I KNOW STUPID RIGHT, okay i shall kill myself now. cheh kidding, but like. you know, those texts that ...
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